Monday, March 10, 2014

LushLunes: A Change In Routine

Sometimes we need a change in our routines to shift our attitudes.

My change began with my clothes.  I was in a rut with my wardrobe. I know it sounds trivial, but truly, it is not.

The routine that needed to change was this: roll out of bed, throw anything on, put my hair in a pony-tail and I'm done. Sounds harmless enough, right?

Well, on one particular morning, I put on an outfit very carelessly. The sweater was pilling. The pants didn't fit right. My boots really needed to go.  But I didn't really see myself.

Before I walked out of the door, I looked at myself in the mirror and I realized how unhappy I was. I didn't take the time to take care of myself; not just my clothes, but my own feelings about how I looked. I acted like it didn't matter, so long as I got dressed and got out of the house.

As I walked outside, snug in my coat, I was very aware of the clothes underneath. I kept looking at my boots, fidgiting with my pants, and obsessing over my blouse. I knew I wasn't going to take this coat off.

Have you ever felt that way?

Stressing over something like clothes can feel so silly but if you're stressing about it, if you're stressing about your perception of yourself, then it really isn't silly. And in that moment, I felt defeated. I felt like I was losing myself. I was so wrapped up in everything that had to get done, I didn't really think of me. And I became aware of this in public. And I felt misearble.

These feelings made me walk differently, made me think differently and shifted my mood into a negative place. There was almost shame in it, if that makes any sense. Why? Because I hadn't been practicing what I'd been preaching. This realiztion made me very angry.

With my ratty old clothes on, I marched my ass to the store and went shopping. I spent several hours carefully picking out not just what I needed but what I really wanted. And at the end of my purchase, I went back into the dressing room and put on a new outfit. The clothes I wore to the store are currently in the donation bin, along with numerous others (the boots haven't been tossed yet, but that is next on my list.)

It doesn't take a fortune; it takes the right attitude. You cannot give up on yourself. I venture to this dark place every once in a while - I'm not perfect by any means - but then I remind myself that how I see myself truly matters. How I feel about myself makes a difference. And the energy I put out there will be refelcted back to me. So don't I want it to be wonderful, positive, and happy energy?

I needed to change a negative routine. And so I did. And that's what I've been doing. I even have a hair appointment coming up very soon. I'm proud to say this because I am very frugal when it comes to my self-care and I've had enough of that routine.

All of that to say that your LushLunes mission is simply to reflect on this: Is there something in your routine that you could change to make you feel better about yourself?

Think about this today, and feel free to tell me all about it. Just acknowledging that a change is needed is the first step. Trust me. I know all about it.

Have a LUSH Lunes my deep thinkers!